Defending the darkness

Love. It's all we have to fend off the darkness. {Thailand...2 days}

In 48 hours I'll be on a 21 hour flight to Bangkok, Thailand...one of the darkest places on earth. I'll be in a place that is home to 0.5% Christians. I'll walk through streets and bars that have robbed hundreds of thousands of their innocence. I'll be the minority. I will look straight into the eyes of many, many of my sisters who have been used, beaten, robbed, disrespected. Sisters who have been FORCED to have sex with the devil. Sisters who have been FORCED to let go of dreams, happiness, laughter. Sisters who NEED the saving grace and love of Jesus Christ.

I'll look traffickers, pimps, and evil dead on in the eyes. I'll see their sin, their darkness, their desperate need of salvation and I WILL love them. Jesus loves the sinner, He died for the sinner.

Only love will fend off the darkness.

Please be in prayer for our team of 17 + 2 leaders. Please pray ultimately that we would shine so brightly in the darkness of the red light district. That the Holy Spirit would seep through our pores. That every person we encounter would see Jesus through us. That we would love with reckless abandonment. That we would walk in desperate dependence. That we would act out of desperate obedience. That our prayers would send shivers up the spines of the lost and broken. That there would be favor in language barriers. That our team would be divinely united. That we would bear life changing fruit for the Thai people and each other. That the Lords will would be done. That we would be humble. That we would be selfless. That all expectations would burn and we would be keen to the Spirits leading. That we would have powerful discernment and wisdom. That we would have protection. That the darkness would become His light.

My heart aches with sadness knowing the pain those woman are in. I just want to love them and show them they are worthy of His love.

Let my name be feared at the gates of hell as I exalt the Savior - The Chariot

Radically.

Today is the last day is 2011 and I'm overwhelmed with a whirlwind of emotions, memories, thoughts, and more. 2011 has been a trying year yet overwhelming with power from the Lord. It's been a year of dependence. A year of good. A year of breakthrough. A year of growth. I am eternally thankful to have a Father who is omnipresent in my life. A Father who covers me in grace and finds me flawless in His perfect eyes. A Father who loves me in a way no one could ever. A Father who pours out grace and mercy. 2011 was a year of new birthing on the inside of me. I learned that I can fully depend on Him for anything and He will see me through everything.

I pray in a year I look back on 2012 and one would comes to mind, radical. I want to be radical this year. Radically chase after God. Radically seek Him and intimately desire His will for my life. I want to be radically obedient. Radically generous with love, grace, forgiveness, finances, time. I want to radically love the Lord. Radically read His word every day. I pray I radically live out His purposes on my life and radically fulfill His callings. I pray I radically yearn to be quiet and listen to His whispers. I want to radically transform my life to be full of praise and thanksgiving. I radically want to care for the lost, the broken, the orphans, the widows. I radically want to worship Him. Radically lay down my cares at His throne. Radically pray. Radically worship. Radically selfless. Radically open handed. Radically seek His will above my own. Radically get rid of selfishness and pride. Radically serve. Radically give. Radically adore my Creator. Radically seek a humble heart. Radically forgive others and seek forgiveness. Radically share my faith. Radical. I want to be radical.

I love my Father and I pray 2012 I show that love with my actions.

Fruit Bearing Obedience

The Lord has consistently been whispering to me "where would you be if Mary wasn't obedient"?

In Luke Chp 1 when the coming of Jesus was fore told to Mary by way of Angel she responded "I am the Lord's servant," "May your word to me be fulfilled." Then the angel left her. (Luke 1:38 NIV).

There is so much power in obedience. Look at Mary. I pray when the Lord reveals callings to me that I would respond just as His servant Mary did. If obedience bears fruit, then Jesus is the best dang fruit there is. Ahyah.

teach.

I.Refuse.To.Breathe.The.Breath.Of.The.Failure.

Change

She said "you know what I love most about Lindsey? I've never met someone who desired so deeply to be radically changed by God in every aspect of her life."

Words produced by actions. That's what I want my life to be. As beautiful as those words are and as much as they humble me, they encourage me that my prayers are not in vain. Prayer changes you. Prayer changes your heart. I do desire to be radically changed by God. I pray my heart mimics His and my actions show the same. I'm not there yet but with each new day that comes, I witness a new joy and revelation of God in me. He must become greater and I must become less if I truly desire the change I pray for.

{Psalm Fifty:One}

Truth

Jesus wins.

learning control

Something so seemingly natural to me is becoming my greatest struggle. Control. I like to control my schedule, my time, how things are done, even the way clothes are folded. Yes, I'm that girl. Recently I've learned controlling those things are far less important than controlling my attitude, my mouth, my feelings, and my moods. God once gave me a word "if you want to control something, control your mouth". Thinking on that it is the foundation of the other things I need to work on controlling, my attitude, my feelings, my moods. Yesterday at The Promise Land Church in Detroit the Pastor was teaching on something so simple yet so complex "be quiet". He illustrated how your tongue was constructed behind gates (your teeth) and how powerful those gates can be when you open them.

In working through restoration of myself I want to continue learning control, positive control. Keeping my mouth shut, losing the attitude, and dropping the roller coaster mood swings. I want my words and my actions to reflect the Godliness I know I was intended for.

"if we are to go forward, we must go back and rediscover those precious values - that all reality hinges on moral foundations and that all reality has spiritual control" - MLK